Had a dream last night that definitely expresses the anxiety I am feeling. I dreamed I was at Fashion Square Mall shopping. I had gone to the bathroom a couple of times while I was there. Whenever I have my iPhone with me and I go to the bathroom, I usually like to check my mail, stuff like that. As I was walking through the mall I realized I had left my iPhone in the bathroom. Since I had been to more than one bathroom, I had no idea which I had left it in. However, I was in a hurry and needed to get somewhere so I thought I'd just check with the information desk later. (Not much I can do if someone stole it and didn't turn it in.)
So I walked out to the parking lot and my car was gone! Someone had stolen it! So I went back into the mall to go to the Information Desk and ask them to let me use their phone. As I'm talking to them I realize, "Oh yeah! I have Lo-Jack AND OnStar on my car!", so all I have to do is call Lo-Jack and they can locate my car for the police and OnStar can kill the engine. I reach into my purse to get my wallet which contains the ID card with the LoJack phone number and my vehicle VIN on it. Guess what was missing? My wallet! I had lost it as well!
Needless to say, made me a little nervous to leave the house today. I know that when I'm in the state of mind I am in right now, I have trouble focusing and keeping it together, so I easily misplace things.
However, I'm fairly certain I know where it all came from - definitely anxiety-induced. I feel guilty about the iPhone because it's an added expense for us. I also feel guilty about my car because it really made things tight for us. Missing wallet? Definitely, because I feel like there isn't enough money.
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